Recall the moments that once have

nice going angelina

woah!

it's been so long since i last updated my blog...

hmmm...

cool

school's almost over... finals week starts on the 19th... haay.. time flies.

deadlines

study

plates

AAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!

i'm getting tired.

by the way, i got a job as a designer... summer job. i'm starting on the 20th of this month..

hahahah!

hell week again... deadline ng design march15... then finals na the week after that.. goodluck tanya! STUDY STUDY STUDY!!! i need a grade of at least 2.5 on this plate to pass the subject... haaaaaaaay!!! lord please...

school's almost over... goodbye regular flow of money... goodbye instant takas papuntang wherever... hahahaha!!!

but hello 11am wake-ups!!! woohooo!!

i'm thinking of a summer job... san kaya ok? i better make up my mind if i'm going to work for the summer... kasi... mag-mid march na!!! ubusan na ng slot.

He's Absolutely Committed to You!

Your guy is committed to you, as if you were alraedy married And hopefully, you show the same commitment to him While you may have had your ups and downs, you've smoothed things out If the two of you aren't serious, you will be soon So start secretly planning your wedding It may happen sooner than you think!

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself. You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

Get Your Cyborg Name

me and my baby... @ tagaytay highlands

the first time we went to tagaytay together

we've been planning for this since god knows when... hahahah!!!

we didn't have the luxury of time that's why...

but the weird thing is... we weren't planning to go there on that day...

we just wanted to hang out in the first mall we see... then we ended up in tagaytay

that's what i like about not planning anything

it spices up life a bit, and it produces better memories to ponder about in the future

and i have to admit...







it's sweet

>plan for the day: WATCH A MOVIE WITH IANNE

we watched "Apocalypto"

hmmm... i find it.... BrUtAlLy AmAzInG!!!!

I LUUUURRVVVVEEEE IT!

> marvin texted me today. he reminded me that whatever happens or if i needed anything, he'll be there to help me with anything... i think he saw my posts on friendster about my depression and sentiments. the bad news, my other half read it and gave it a bad impression... i'm flirting with marvin/ i'm cheating on him/ i'm a hardcore liar... baby, i'm not... haaay... not a day passes by without a fight. i love him sooooo much... but sometimes i couldn't take all the accusations.. i really can't seem to do anything right. i love him and he tells me he loves me too.. but i can't understand why he always put me down. he says the worst things... i can't take it anymore... but i just can't leave him. i love him. now, i don't know what to do to please him. wala akong kwenta... (well, that's how he thinks...)

haaay....

it's been a long time nanaman...

what have i been doing? well, let's see...

busy with airsoft, school, going out with ianne and my friends, planning our business..

that's it!

hmm... it's past 1 in the morning and i'm not yet sleeping (what's new??)

by the way, i woke up late today so ok lang... on the other hand... i should be sleeping na kasi i have to go out of the house early... to meet up with ianne.. arg!!!

speaking of ianne.... our relationship is going through a rough time these past few weeks... bwiset!!! i tick off easily and same with him din... we get mad at the smallest things. i don't know what's happening. on the brighter side naman, we are aware of our situation... we also know our faults and admit it. it's disappointing lang na we get into each others nerves all the time.

changing the topic. i just have to say this kasi ang kapal talaga ng muka nya... this guy.. my ex (a huge disappointment in my life!!) sobrang feeling!!! he messaged me on YM the other day... and guess what? HE ASSUMED I WOULD GET JEALOUS OF HIS NEW GIRLFRIEND!!!! c'mon you @$$h0/3! don't you think it's quite pathetic for you to assume that?? why would you even think i'd get jealous? you practically ruined my life. and come to think of it... you're nothing compared to what i have right now.. ok, it's given you're GWAPO and most people would agree with me on that. hmm... but that's it! all you have is your looks. nothing more. you're shallow. (sori sa panlalait... but you really are). i pity the girls you had for a fool and who took you seriously (and i curse the day i took part in you're foolishness). i just hope that like me, they would find peace and finally get back on their feet after the disaster you've caused them. for your own betterment and for the sake of the perfect girls you'd be dating and who'd be loving you.... CHANGE THAT FuCK!Ng ATTITUDE!!

guys...

i'm just glad i found the perfect guy.... i love you ianne!:D

haaay... after 3days of living a low tech life (salamat ng marami browout!!!), may kuryente na!!!!!!

drama mode:

today i feel worthless... i can't even comfort my own boyfriend, to think na he's having problems recently. not just one, but patong patong na problems... stress pa binibigay ko... i can't explain but walang kwenta talaga...
it made me think, will this relationship last? i want to... but what if mapikon siya sakin? sobrang asikaso siya sakin but me... hindi nare-reciprocate... he puts too much effort na hindi ko mapantayan yung ginagawa niya. i love him soooo much but i think it's unfair for him...

baby, i'm soooo sori if wla akong kwenta

yey!
i missed writing in my blog... i've been busy kasi... hahahaha

the updates:

> after 4 years of living a single life... inlove na ko!! ampota!
> war games is now in my blood
> i now have twin boys as my "inaanak"
> school's the same... shitty!!
> beer is now my friend... yahoohoo!
> umm... i'm still ugly? nyahahahahah

hmm.. i don't think it's good for me to write in my blog... why? because all i can think about right now is my strong feelings for this guy... ( hi ianne!) sobrang cheesy and well i have to admit... nakakainis na marinig.
whining about heartaches is another thing, but announcing na you're inlove is sobrang... cheesy talaga!!!
(oh well, ianne if mabasa mo 'to don't get mad or whatever... i'm just not used to sharing good things here in my blog... puro bad stuff kasi most of the time basta matters of the heart)

ummm... let me share something about how we met, the history, and the shit between us...
it was one binagagyo day when i was in the car with yano along estrada. we were slapping each other's forehead when yano opened his side of the window and called out to someone... and in an instant, he was in the car with us... that was ianne (in short na pick-up namen siya ni yano sa estrada! nyahahahahah)
after that, ka-chikahan ko na siya and super parasite na ko sa paghinge ng yosi niya... we met july12 (according to ianne) and the next you know, we were dating just before august12... shiat! i know ambilis... (if you guys think na may shit na nangyari samen that's why naging kame agad... you're wrong. with all honesty, nothing happened)

most people would probably think.. "anong shit yan? lokohan?" but we couldn't care less... we know what we have is some serious shit...

enough with the cheeziness...

je t'aime avec tout mon coeur ianne....
*hug*

> si yano inlove na.. > si ianne heatbroken sa ex niya... > si kaye kaya? > si meggy nasa baguio at miss ko na! > si dinggoy masaya ang lovelife ngaun... weeee > si joey... ewan, walang balita (oi magparamdam ka! alis tayo!) > si rachel... going strong with paul > si rein... konting tiis pa uuwi na si horhe!! > si maymay, well sila pa din > si nina, ayun! bakasyon grande > ako? panget pa din... weeeeeeeeee

"come on baby get your shoes on
you're lookin' like you need a rescue
underneath the southern moonlight where only i could find you..."

sugar - by tonic

hahahahah wala lang... i missed listening to this song... kanina ko lang ulit 'to naparimggan..
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hmmm... i was eating coffee crumble when krizzy texted me. her nagusap daw sila ng x nia... to cut it short, krizzy decided to talk to him and tell him na that would be the last time they would talk. after that, kalimutan na... na hindi niya na kilala si x... the moment i read that, mejo naging teary-eyed ako... (syet!! pota!) somehow i can relate to her situation... i feel her pain. the only difference is she managed to tell that straight to his face yet ako... hind pa... well, i've been trying to but i can't seem to keep my word.
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from now on...

i don't know you anymore

i don't even care

i suffered enough

waaaaaaaaaaa

*another promise made by tans... well, sana magwa ko... i'll try my best. so far i'm doing good.. i haven't talked to him for weeks na coolness!!!
wahahahah

it's soooo coool na hindi niya binabasa blog ko

well, i don't even think alam niya na may blog ako
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another topic:

i was planning to go to our college party later sa metro bar....
but as usual... tinatamad ko

my friends and i had a "slumber party" kinda night... hahahahah. well we stayed at mhel's place.. me, cams, mhel and krissy... too bad ago didn't stay (nagalit si mother dear kasi late niya na sinabi na he'll be staying at mhel's house for the night)

it's a really fun night kwentos, girl talks, problems, other people's issues (wahahahah chika!), taking pictures, laughing, drinking, pig eating... it was fun isipin mo, uminom ako?? they kept on saying, "we're happy and we won't forget this night kasi uminom si tans". really, i'm not much of a drinker.. you can see me smoking all day, but you seeing me drinking beer or any alcohol? very rare! hahahahah hmmm... last night was really something kasi it's the first time sa i drank more than i my limitation and yet i didn't get drunk.. well i was kinda dizzy and bigat ng head ko, but i didn't vomit and stuff like that.

it was nice... we talked about almost anything. hmmm, most of my friends are guys, we talk about guy stuff and i enjoy their company and kalokohan very much. but the kind of conversation we had last friday? it was very different.. we talked about things that really mattered. most people know me as very unserious and puro kalokohan and walang ibang gustong gawin kundi tumawa, have fun, and make fun of other people. i don't even talk about matters of the heart. most people think i'm younger than my age because of the way i act... but that night everything changed (was it because of the alcohol? wahahahah i don't think so).

it made me realize that there are a lot of things na hindi ko pa nagpagdadaanan. there's so much that life has to offer but i refuse to experience (or i wasn't aware that i refuse to experience it)... well, i also realize that i'm still a kid.. by actions and by heart.

today is july11-tuesday. 3 days since our very 1st gurls' sleepover at mhel's place... we're back in school... same old tans (all boyish and crazy) but i will never forget the night i talked, thinked, and acted like a total girly-girl (nyahahahahahah!!! kadiri!! parang hindi bagay saken??)

can't wait for the next sleepover

i can't seem to recognize,
either side of this modern version
or fading person i was,
i tried to memorize dates and times of old
accidents and the failed attempts now,
i'm still afraid of those mistakes i've made.

i'm mostly memories, most missed opportunities,
mostly minor tragedies, i'm mostly you and me.
i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities,
mostly abnormalities, i'm mostly you and me,
and you and you and me.
i can't seem to recognize, either side of my conversations or
contemplations i've done,
i've tried to memorize the truth and lies,
of the facts and fictions
and the half truth admissions i've done.
i'm still afraid of those mistakes i've made.

i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities,
mostly minor tragedies, i'm mostly you and me.
i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities,
mostly abnormalities, i'm mostly you and me,
and you and you and me.

out of luck and had enough
out of trust and out of touch,
out of time i'm hanging up
i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities,
mostly minor tragedies, i'm mostly you and me.
i'm mostly memories, mostly missed opportunities,
mostly abnormalities, i'm mostly
you and me, and you and you and me.

Something has to change.
Undeniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden anyone should bear.
Constant over stimulation numbs me
But I would not want you any other way.
Just not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I said, I don't want it.
I just need it.
To breathe, to feel, to know I'm alive.

You Are Most Like Gisele Bundchen

Slightly exotic and perfectly gorgeous

the latest addtion to my watches!! weeee
from lacoste...
i'm not quite sure if the design of this watch was FIFA inspired,
coz the details of the watch is like a football..
errr whatever! the watch is nice

you plan to see what can happen on a day like today
when you sit still and let sweet time pass you by...

....

him: what's the problem ba?
her: nothing, why?
him: why don't you give one of them a chance?
her: huh?
him: ano?
her: is that a serious question?
him: umm, yah?
her: hahahaha, i just don't think i'm ready.
him: i don't get you... you've had a relationship na bida??
her: oo, but...
him: what? baket ganun? pinipigilan mo ba sarili mo?
her: no...
him: (sigh)
her: c'mon... i just don't like the whole idea of dating. i might have done it,
but now... ewan, i guess i grew tired of it.
him: baka naman you're afraid because of what happened with your last relationship...
her: no, of course not.. maybe that's it, i grew tired of it lang talaga..
i'm having so much fun right now, doin' things i never got the chance to do
when i was in the dating mode... that i don't wanna do anything ruin what i
have right now...
him: you really are weird.. hahaha come to think of it, if you're dating someone
right now... malamang hindi kita kasama tumambay ngaun!! hahahaha
her: so now, you get my point?

......

can you hear the song in your head right now?
seems like it's telling you something...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
prof ko nanaman si arch. saguindan!!!!

for the past few weeks... hahahahah. wait.. i can't explain it...
it's just that, i feel like myself again.
the same old gago that is me:)
ha! i saw that picture again hahahahah
i was going through some of my stuff a while ago and i saw my grade school id's
i look so fuckin' square!!
nyahahahaha